Even though we are less active during Fall & Winter, the cooler/colder temperatures and the exposure to the elements often requires spending more energy doing things. Out body requires more nutrients to keep warm and functioning well (as in not getting sick).
That’s the reason why I like having a mini “vitamin” garden indoors during that time: I grow various sprouts, shoots & microgreens for nutrition & taste…And also because I find it fun and relaxing :).
As Heraclitus once said: “Change is the only constant in life”. This Full Moon was particularly challenging for me. I went from tears to anger, to disappointment…And changes are already occurring.
As much as I like teaching, things are not turning out the way I expected. I think that we all hope to encounter the same type of interest, passion, and involvement in others than we experience. Reality is a bit different. I am currently questioning whether or not I will continue on Meetup.
I am currently questioning whether or not I will continue with Meetup. I’m also considering other forms of teaching/communication (see my blog post on The Limiting Nature of Words). The truth is I’m not a new-agey, Reiki, angel & sparkly fairy kind of person – this world doesn’t attract me and is starting to make me sick to my stomach. I don’t see myself quite like a witch either (though I have the greatest respect for real witches) because I’m not into rituals (that’s one of the reasons why I went with shamanism). I’m kind of something in between, which makes my path a bit more complicated to define. But I’m starting to see where I’m heading (“the roots lie beyond the smoke” – see my post onThe A-ha Moment in my Healing Tradition).
The Virgo in me is at service, but I don’t think it is to people directly. I think I’m just a middle woman connecting the past with the future, trying to bring back from extinction and redefine an old tradition, and keep the balance with the 9 worlds (and the folks that dwell there). I’ve always been a loner (it was not always a choice though) and the greatest disappointments in my life have always come from people. One cannot help or heal people who are not willing to do the work in the first place, so why bother? Within the past few months, I have felt the increasing appeal of silence. Words are losing their appeal and their enchantment, I’m starting to wonder if they truly have the same meanings for all of us.
I’m going inwards (not just because it’s the Fall), rejoicing in the simple pleasures that have a meaning for me and make me happy. I’ll share what needs to be shared in one form or another, but I’ll stick to my path. As for today’s reading, here it is:
As I mentioned before, there are 2 things I truly love & am dedicated to: Runes and Herbs. I started learning about healing herbs when I was 15 after I awoke from a dream about Sage (out of all plants)…The Runes entered in my life my later (though I apparently already showed signs of interest in esoteric things & fortune telling as a child) and I didn’t come to them for divination (that came later).
I had read that there was once a healing tradition involving the Runes, and that’s what interested me (and still does to this day). However, the Runes belong to an oral tradition that was passed down one generation to the next. Today you may find countless books on Runic Divination and even Runic Magic, some better & more in-depth than others but it’s not up to me to judge, it all depends on what you are looking for, how dedicated you are, and how far you are willing to go. But on the topic of Runic Healing, there isn’t a whole lot of literature to choose from, and since I don’t speak any of the Scandinavian languages (old or new) I can’t even go look for ancient sources. So all I have are 2-3 English books, whose contents may or may not chime with my chore, what I’m looking for, or what I’m looking to (re)create. I have learned to rely increasingly on my intuition over the years, some things being revealed little by little – he or she who works with the Runes knows that it’s a personal and never-ending learning process.
My unorthodox approach to things may and will cause people to say that I’m following the tradition. True! It wasn’t taught to me by anyone…I had to dig and research, I had to learn on my own, I had to see things unfold with my own eyes, but more importantly, I had to trust that what I was being shown, drawn to, and given was real. It may not be THE truth but it is my truth. And as far as tradition goes: to keep it going, you need to keep it alive – which means to adapt to the time & place we live in, as much as connecting some dots – and you need to share your findings.
Now the title of this article is about my “A-Ha” moment. As I said earlier, I’ve been trying for years to (re)create a Runic Healing Tradition of my own. I wanted to combine Runes, Herbs & Energy Work/Healing together. I did manage to create something, but that wasn’t enough, I was barely scratching the surface and felt frustrated that I couldn’t go further, there seemed to be obstacles on my path and I couldn’t connect the dots.
Then came a time of personal struggle and great transformation for me, which lasted years and is still going on, since we are constantly evolving (but now I recognize the signs, I’m aware of the patterns). That time of great suffering led me to 1/study and use the Runes for divination, 2/to start trusting myself again and relearn to be intuitive rather than logical (something I had always done in my childhood, until the system had me to conform and think with the square, logical mind – which slowly led to my own demise), and 3/to practice self-healing, manifestation and transformation with the Runes. The latter is what I’m currently teaching during my Runic Meditations and putting together with visuals in a Runic OracleI’m designing.
So I thought that I had nailed it: what I was to teach (and I’ve known for years that I was meant to teach) was what I learned with my experience, which is inner alchemy – a form of healing. Until the herbs came back in the corner of my mind, a few days ago.
I’d like to point out, for those of my readers who don’t know, that I’m a French expat living in California, yet my mother tongue is German (my German is a little rusted but it’s coming back lately). Speaking 2 or 3 languages is a godsend because it’s often the case that a book isn’t translated into another language. Lately, I’ve noticed the emergence of a European/Germanic shamanic tradition that, in a way, complements their rich herbal tradition…And these books aren’t translated into English nor French. And while browsing through these books I discovered the missing link that’s been eluding me for years. I discovered the work of a healer who works with incense and smudging (and I’ve been making my own smudge sticks for years, I am most interested in the esoteric uses of plants) in a different manner & system than Native Americans do, especially since she uses plants native to Germany. She also takes smudging to a whole new level, not just for cleansing spaces, clearing the aura, grounding the self or for emotional wellbeing…She actually uses smudging for physical healing.
And when I discovered that, I understood right away that this was the missing piece of my puzzle, the thing holding me back and preventing me from creating my own Runic Healing Tradition: “Beyond the Smoke lie the Roots” is what I heard. The only reason why I could not go any further with it is that I had lost my connection with my roots, which is my Germanic heritage from my mother’s side of the family. I’ve had female Ancestors come to me in visions (I will not go into details here), offering help & support, they were always from my mother’s branch of the tree. I also understood that it, in order to remember & reconnect, I need to re-learn German (I will have to, just to decipher those books anyway). During yesterday’s hike, as I stopped by an Elder tree, I received a confirmation of all that and got a great feeling of peace and of finally knowing for sure where I was heading. By mending the past, I have set the stepstones for the (near) future…
Today, besides my daily drawing of Runes, I decided that I needed some extra information about the changes (subtle or not) occurring lately. Therefore, I reached to my Faeries’ Oracle deck, and I picked The Sage.
Of course, I read the verbiage that comes with this card and the somewhat obvious explanations that had to do with turning inwards, wisdom and inner knowledge. But there was a bit more in there, at least for me, like the notion of cultivating detachment – which I have seen mentioned a few times over the past few weeks.
And what is detachment, besides cutting the cords of everything that binds you to something or someone, of not letting anything or anyone having power over you? The answer is right in front of your face: true freedom!
So I channeled The Sage to see what else he had to reveal to me personally, and here’s what he said:
“You need to forgive yourself in order to forgive others. Only self-love and self-compassion can allow healing to take place and bring the detachment needed to allow you to move forward, but more importantly to move on.
You are preparing the ground for the next step in your life and one always reaps what one sows. How do you want your future harvest to look like if the seeds you’re sowing are unhealthy?
Take the time needed for your physical and emotional self to truly heal… Only then can something good and truly magical happen to you. It is worth the work and the wait…”
While I manage to practice detachment somewhat successfully (the “I don’t give a f### about anything” philosophy is oh so delightfully freeing), the self-forgiveness part (which I had also heard mentioned by a close friend of mine) will probably be the real challenge for me.
We often complain about the negative situations we find ourselves in, and we often forget that we have a part of responsibility in these situations because, at one point or another, we allowed them to happen (consciously or not) but we should keep in mind that it is/was a necessary step and experience for our evolutionary process and path.
Therefore I will make a conscious effort to try to apply the wisdom of The Sage in my life and current situation…
Since I like vibrational remedies so much (and believe me, they do work – the effects vary in time and intensity from one individual to another because we all have a different blueprint, different issues to work on, and different goals), I have decided to take my practice one step further in making my own Runic Essences. These essences won’t be for my own use exclusively, I’ll have them in my Etsy shop as well for whoever in interested in studying and/or working with the Runes.
What is the purpose of these Runic Essences?
They will help with deepening one’s connection with one or more Runes.
They can help bring more insight into one’s practice (divination or else).
They will facilitate inner & transformational work (turning the inner lead (often by facing the shadow side) into gold)
They can also facilitate self-healing (emotional and spiritual mainly, though we often experience the symptoms physically) on an energetic/vibrational level
I will be preparing these essences following the Runic Wheel of the Year, and since the Runic month of FEHU is coming to an end, my first essence will be URUZ. This is artisanal work, so please be aware that I prepare my essences in small batches. I also plan to have more specific Runic Essences: for protection, and such. Upon request, I can also create “personalized” essences, specifically for one’s needs and uses – in that case, just contact me privately.
De gauche à droite et dans le sens des aiguilles d’une montre: feuilles de fenouil sauvage, chou kale, branches de marjolaine, épinard de Nouvelle-Zelande (également appelé tétragone cornue), et feuilles de roquette.
From left to right, and clockwise: wild fennel leaves, kale greens, sweet marjoram stems, New Zealand spinach, and arugula.